Today’s post is a bit different, it wasn’t designed to be here, it is an entry from my journal. I started journaling in June and for the first time ever I’ve actually stuck with it fairly consistently five days a week. I’m getting better in my journaling, and by that I mean I’m letting my thoughts flow a little more freely. Often when I am writing I’m also thinking of those who may one day read these entries after I’m going and so I’m self editing as I go; which let’s be for real defeats the entire purpose of journaling! So I’m getting better and today is proof of that because when I was done with today’s entry I thought, others need this too, this needs to be shared. So…here it is!
Time goes by so fast. The hours, the days, the months, the years. I know it; yet when I think about it I still get flustered and feel like I’m not doing enough, enjoying enough, like I’m just wasting time.
I don’t know how to shake that. I don’t know how to be content where I am while not reflecting back on each day and wondering what else I could have done. I should get more accomplished around my house, I should work out more, I should dedicate and spend more time on creating and growing my business, I should spend more time with family, with friends. I feel like there is so much more I should do. But then I stop and think no I should just enjoy this moment and this day.
It is a never ending struggle and one I am recognizing even more now that I’ve started journaling. Every morning I sit down here with my bible, my books, my journal and my pen and when I go to write I reflect. And in that reflecting I think of all that has gone on in the last 24 hours but I also think of all that didn’t.
God I need you in this mount and in these times. I need your guidance on my path. Lord please lead me and please give me peace along the way. Amen.
Arise and Glow 