Life it is a changing!

All this week I’ve had a thought keep coming to mind; that I needed to write a post. Simultaneously I’ve thought about how much I’ve changed in the last year, the last six months and even the last month. So the words change and the phrase “it’s okay to change your mind” have been coming to mind as well. I’m pretty sure I already wrote about that. What’s funny is that since then I’ve changed my mind about many things, that I’d already changed my mind about. Still with me?!

I didn’t go back to check when I wrote that post though I did note that my last post was in March. Ya’ll I am just straight up terrible at keeping up with this blog. I’m sorry! My best excuse is that I’ve been reading, a lot, and growing, and you guessed it….changing!

Here is some of what I’ve figured out. You are exactly who God created you to be. You are meant to change. You are not weird. I say those things to you because I wish someone had said them to me. I wish it hadn’t taken me so long to learn about who I am inside, embrace it and let it show on the outside.

In the last two years since the you know what…well I’ve gone through an entire description of thoughts, feeling, emotions and opinions. I was wrapped up in social media, like full on, and so invested in what those around me and closest to me were doing that I began to change. But in doing so I took on a lot of the characteristics of those I saw and continued to walk away from my own.

In many ways I’m still doing that, but this time I’m aligning my social media feeds with what inspires me, feeds me and fuels me. So instead of changing to be like others, I’m changing to be like me. And damn does that feel good! I’m learning to not be driven by fear but to be driven by what matters to me. I’m learning to still be open minded and embracing of others ideas but remembering that I do not have to agree or follow their path and instead can stay true to my faith and my own walk in life.

I got rid of Facebook completely and started a new Instagram. In doing so, I changed my entire daily feed of content. It’s been so good for my soul. Rather than keep watch every day on what someone from my high school is doing I’m learning from strangers. Whether it be faith, farming or family. My brain isn’t being cluttered with what one of my former co-workers had for lunch but instead I’m learning new recipes from someone in another state I’ll never meet. In many ways that sounds so impersonal but if you look closely at it you may see the sense in it. Because what should be personal to you is your spouse, your children, those who are invested in your daily life as you are in there’s like for real….not just on social media.

I recently created a new Facebook page and man am I struggling with it! I like keeping up with events at local breweries and from favorite musicians and that is so much harder with only Instagram. My best friend lives two hours away and only has Facebook…so when important events happen in her life, like her son’s prom, I have to say “don’t forget to send me pictures”. FB also has the group feature where I can share and learn from others like me. So now I’m trying to figure out how to balance it out.

I don’t want to get caught back in the cycle of knowing everything that everyone I ever knew is doing each day. Because how much does that really apply to my life? I don’t want to spend hours scrolling mindlessly just because. So again I’m changing. I have sworn off FB twice now, totally deleting the page…to only return again, twice. And that frustrates me to no end but are we ever really learning and growing if we don’t change? No!

So if you are new here, go back and read through some old posts. I’m certain you will see the various changes. If you’ve been around awhile then you have seen them happen. So many times people use the term hypocrite when someone changes because you can’t say one thing then do another. But I encourage you to take a step back and realize how much you’ve changed over the years even if it’s just slight. I ask you to recognize how important change is in life and to realize that if you never ever change your mind on any topic then you may be growing older but you aren’t growing at all.

~Carla