Awakening!

May has been an amazing month! Our son got married the first weekend of the month, followed by Mother’s Day, then we took a trip to our first ever NHRA race. We’ve been trying to recuperate from all of that so for the last three weeks we have slept in, skipped workouts and just rested.

I thought we were being a bit lazy and I worried that June was gonna hurt when we decided to get back into a routine of daily exercise again. But today as I was doing my usual end of month reflection I realized that we were being anything but lazy.

We’ve changed so much in three years, individually and as a couple. We are also in constant communication about these changes and reflect together on them. Lately I’ve talked a lot about how much I’ve changed just in the last six months and it’s funny because I’m realizing that six months ago, I was talking about the previous six months. If you don’t believe in “seasons” well you should because they are real!

I always reflect at the change of the month but I’m seeing a broader picture now of what the span of six months can do. Don’t get me wrong, a lot happens in a month too, it’s just interesting to me to put all of them together and see the outcome.

I’ve been on a journey to more natural living for awhile now but I’ve gotten even more holistic of late. While in many ways it seems I’ve changed, I’m realizing that I’m just finally honing in to what was always inside me. As a mentor told me recently it is hard to unlearn all of what we’ve learned while being manipulated by others our entire lives. So while it’s hard it’s so worth it when your eyes are opened and you started really thinking for yourself.

I never thought I’d be the person to be lumped into the “conspiracy theory” group but here I am. Waking up and realizing that the only one looking out for my best interests is me. So call me crazy call me whatever you’d like but I’m loving this journey that I’m on. I’m learning to be my full authentic self and learning to go back to where things started. God and the things He provided, to feed and nourish myself and my family; body and soul.

I’m thankful for this awakening and now rather than feel like we’ve wasted the last month I realize that we were just resting for the next leg of the journey. I cannot wait to see what June brings!

~Carla